Well, I am definitely happy to be sitting here today. What was supposed to be a 1 1/2 to 3 hour surgery turned into 4 hours, and what was supposed to be an overnight stay turned into 5 days.
The tumor was not the type that the doctor had expected, and it was just wrapped around everything it could find to wrap around, including and especially my jugular vein !
I came out of surgery unable to swallow my own saliva.......panicky........and called upon the name of Jesus MANY, MANY times throughout those trying days. He was everpresent, and put so many angels/saints of God in my path all along the way ! Unexpectedly being able to speak a bit, I found that singing praises to God could bring me out of the most miserable states. It was off-key, as I lost a lot of range for now, but he's used to some of that out of me anyway, and like the wonderful father he is.........he likes to hear me sing however I can do it .
I have come home with a feeding tube in my nose, and my swallow ......partially prohibited by some paralysis of the back part of the tongue....is slowly returning. I can swallow a little bit of water, maybe 2 - 4 swallows now. They don't want me to even try any type of food, as I may aspirate some into my lungs and wind up with pneumonia.
I am humbled that God finds me worthy of such a trial, and have gained a new empathy for the suffering of others, including and especially my own husband. He's had swallowing difficulties for nearly 6 years now, since his first stroke, and I had no idea what that was like. It's one of those things we take for granted, sortof like breathing.
I KNOW that I am healed, by the stripes of my dear Saviour JESUS, and I pray that this experience will help me to be of some help to another person going through a hard time. In the mean time, I look forward to each step of that healing's manifestation..........especially being able to sleep someway besides sitting straight up !
Until I post again, my love to you all, as always..............
" Do you not know?
Have you not heard???
The LORD is the everlasting GOD,
the Creator of the ends of the earth." Isaiah 40:28
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
But if you do not forgive men their sins,
your Father will not forgive your sins." Matthew 6:14,15